Today, I woke up in tears...I had a terrible nightmare. In the nightmare, I am a student who is trying my very best to get good result and to impress one of my lecturer. I got a 34/40 for my paper and i was so happy because i thought i finally did it, i have proved myself good enough to be my lectuere's student. In a part of my nightmare, my lecturer asked the class a question. I flipped every books and notes I've got, looking for the answer. However, my lecturer sat down beside me and told me this," every time when i turned around, i saw you talking to a friend beside you...you are not fit to be in my class. leave this place now!" after hearing this, I packed my stufff and the whole class was looking at me. I kept all my notes and books into my bag. In my mind i was thinking," you asked me to find out something, i found already. You want me to note down what you say, I also have done that. I got 34/40 for your test and now, i found out that everything i do, YOU DON"T KNOW IT. you have sterotype me from the start."

Well, sad to say that this dream sort of reflects my real life situation. No matter how hard i try to prove to my lecturer, he won't see. He only notice me when i am talking, couldn't answer his question or when i happens to fell asleep. He is some one i respect but I think He thinks that I am not someone worthy of his respect and teaching me is a waste of his time. Sad to have this type of lectuerer...but that's life...

+ ChunChun @ 9:12 AM